Love is selfish when u still have it. I regretted not being selfish for my own love. Why didn't i be more possessive when i have my lovE? I dunno. Maybe i just dun want him to feel tt im selfish. I wanna thank him for loving me wif all his heart during the times we have been together. Never had i been cherished and loved so much. Im grateful for each day he gave me. I was blessed for once he loved me.

I didn't want to rely on him so much but he's that one person so different from others. I have difficulty really trusting frens coz i have a real bad experience wif frens. He's that person i noe who won't hurt me or betray me like the others do. Im also not that close wif my family members so he's all i have. Blame myself for not being selfish. I shouldn't have been so generous wif love. But im happy that i had let him know that i really do love him wif my heart.

I have did everything i could to hold him back but nothing works. Today, on my way back home from school, i heard the song Hen Ai Hen Ai Ni by Rene Liu. I have sang this song to him before. I remember telling him last time that if he feel happy with another girl or without me, then its ok he leave me.

Although he has responsibility for me. Leaving like this is really irresponsible to me. But i dun wan to be his burden. I want his Love but not guilt. I want his Love and not pity.

Memories of us have been slapping me so hard. When i thought that i have move a few steps ahead, the cruel memories pulled me back to the starting line again. I do yearn to be in your strong arms and crave for your love but that was a far fetched wish for now.

Now Love is not being possessive, Love is seeing him happy even if he's not with me. If he's really happy with his life now, maybe next time with another girl, then i'll be happy for him too. I cannot be selfish now, no status to be selfish anymore. Its time to really let him go. And I will let go... ...

~ *[Zhi Yao You Ai Zai Xin Li, Na Yi Jing Shi Tian Chang Di Jiu]*~